In a Little While - U2

Because it is a tuly lovely song and the addition of Brandon is an enhancement to anything.

Happy Endings - Mika

My divorce papers were filed this week, I will no longer be married but divorced, no longer a Mrs but a Ms. My friend said divorce is just a word but not to me, it is the death of my girlish dreams, the opposite of happy ever after. I only have myself to blame, this was my choice, what I wanted and yet I am sadder than I thought possible.

Creep - Radiohead

For the words

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

The One

I am missing someone with an ache, I think about them every day, I cry over them every day. I want to say "you're the one" but they don't see me as their one. I'm too late.

I smelt someone with his aftershave the other day and the sense of loss was tangible and I cried because I want to be in his arms nuzzled up to his neck smelling him. When I see his name on my phone or in my in box my heart misses a beat, I cherish every kind word he says to me and I save every text and email like a love sick teenager.

This strength of feeling has so surprised me as I didn't always feel like this, someone said something and it just hit me, I actually love him, I really do. I didn't know that I did. I remember being in his arms and feeling his mouth on mine and I didn't realise that that was where I belonged.

This is why I find something wrong with every man I date, this is why I can't be arsed to try in any relationship, this is why I continually give up, this is why I can't make love to anyone else because no man measures up to him, I judge every man by his standards and every one is found wanting.

Someone once asked me if I would fight for love and I said I would and yet I find myself the world's biggest coward and he will never know that I love him.

But I do, I love him profoundly, painfully and unrequitedly.

He's the one.

The Killers - Romeo & Juliet and Adele - Make You feel My Love

Because I prefer it to the Dire Straits version.



Because I prefer it to the Bob Dylan version

Chicane - Poppiholla

Because it makes me happy.

Reverend and the Makers - State of things

For the lines "To cook and to clothe and to clean and to screw, is not the sum total of all she can do"

The Killers - For reasons Unknown

Because this has become the theme tune for my new life.